23.8.13

Lebanese or not?

There have never been better times than the current ones in Lebanon.
It was always a mix of gloomy, apprehensive, tensed, unpredictable, hopeful, shitty, bright, simple, fake, just-going-without-us-really-knowing-how-it-actually-is state...

But all in all it was and still is one thing: real.

This is our reality and it has been like this since my great grandpa's days, it's just the actors, the make-up, the decor, the accessories that have changed.

Today, we're at the bottom and it's getting worse and will keep getting exponentially worse relatively to the general decadent state of the world.
I cannot expect it to get better with corruption flawing the whole pyramid from its top to its bottom.
I cannot expect it to get better with plain imbeciles ruling, acting, teaching, managing, writing, designing, driving, constructing, blogging, etc... wherever I go because of who they know.
I cannot expect it to get better with all the "just-going-without-us-really-knowing-how-it-actually-is" state.
I cannot expect it to get better with a sectarian cancer embedded in our daily life, culture, regions, collective memory and system.

So, every Lebanese resident in Lebanon is in a fucked-up relationship with a cancer-ridden Lebanon, what is he/she going to do about it?
There are no grays here, it's either black or white, take it or leave it,
be Lebanese or be something else.

I've had it with wannabe Lebanese who don't know the value of Lebanon, and I can't stand the nagging, negativity and hatred anymore.

You can't stand living with chi'aa or sunnis or druzes or catholics or armenians or ...?
Because
"oooo they want to eat us alive!"
"they are slowly outbumbering us!"
"they are so wild and free!"

THEN FUCK THE HELL OFF!
Go find some desert of sand or snow and bury your fucking head there and everything will be alright for you!

Shit's everywhere on our doomed planet (and "shit" here refers to people, happenings & objects) and with all the shit that I've had in my life till now growing up in Lebanon, with all the insecurities I have, with all the dark days to come and with all the idiots surrounding me: I will stay here and fight the cancer my way.

What are you going to do?